With Wisdom She Lights Her Path!

Yet another year is coming to an end and here I sit down, recollecting my thoughts, recollecting the whole year, the very first day of this year. It surely has been a tough year, with all the ups and downs, with those emotional whirlwinds, and those tornados awaking out of nowhere when I thought it’s all over. But we get caught up in the miseries of the life, we let the same problem ruin us again and again for years when we could easily just say, “so what”.

“I broke up”, so what?

“I gave myself away to the wrong guy”, so what?

“I am a success but I’m still alone”, so what?

“My career is a mess”, so what?

“My mother doesn’t love me”, so what?

We often forget that weakness is a great thing, strength, it is nothing actually! When a man is born, he is weak, feeble and flexible. When he dies, he is hard and insensitive, he is full of “beliefs”, beliefs that made him hard, that broke him. Have you seen a small plant that is growing? It’s tender and pliant, but when it’s dry and hard it withers, it dies. Hardness and strength that we often love are the companions of death! Pliancy and feebleness express the life, freshness of a being. What has hardened will never survive. With this thought, I would want to wrap up this year, a year which has made me weak, and yet taught me the essence of life!

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The Fall – Of Our Lives!

CABIN

Oh, little girl why do mourn the quondam?

For it is rightly said, “let the bygones be bygones”!

 

Let those dead, broken leaves fall,

For the fall is the season to let go it all.

 

The Sun will shine brighter soon,

But don’t let the darkness make your beliefs swoon.

 

Oh I know nights are darker and longer,

But you little girl can rejuvenate yourself and get a little stronger.

 

There’s a little beauty in everything that falls,

Have you noticed the Earth sheathed in colours of fall?

 

Oh, I know the roads empty and mown,

But then there are some roads that you’ve to walk alone!

Just Don’t!

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BackSpace!!!

How many emotions are nibbled by this Backspace I wonder!

From a simple Sorry to most enormous declarations, all of this couldn’t make it to its rightful destination because of BackSpace. And how I wish this backspace was just a virtual issue…!

We suppress too many emotions and we end up using “backspace” in our lives as well, isn’t it? We suppress is it with utmost pride, as if it is something worth doing as if its a way of life. These days it is probably in trend to be emotionless, to be insensitive, to be careless, oh the actual word is “carefree”. Being a sensitive person has become an issue because everyone is busy hiding their emotions. But is it a right way to deal with the things in your head!? We often end up hiding a lot of things, which we need to let out…

For an example, Be it a simple “I miss you”,

Be it a simple “I miss you”, you type that a thousand times, and then Backspace! Poof… It’s gone, from the text it surely is gone but is it gone from your mind?

A simple “sorry” after a huge fight is yet another task for everyone. as if accepting your mistake is a wrong thing, or maybe just saying sorry to end the fight is an absolute NO! But then that “sorry” will be stuck somewhere in-between the relation, and it will surely trouble you in the most unexpected moments.

I am sure all of us have those vulnerable moments in life where you are in the state to say a thousand things, you type those things, and then suddenly it occurs you might be portrayed as an emotional or sensitive person. And then Backspace! When it comes to shooting down hurtful things, there is no Backspace, but it is used extensively in the wrong places. I wonder what would go wrong if you instead just hit the “Send” for a change? Just be vulnerable, be as you are…

Sometimes when I see people I wonder what is wrong with Human Race! We are called “Human” for a reason, the reason is that we are capable of “feeling” a lot of things. We are trying to eradicate the very essence of being human!

 

Millennial Moment


The way she clutches her hand,

The way her leg keeps making certain movements,

The way she keeps ticking her fingernail on her table, 

The way her toe keeps doing that rhythmic motion,

The way her mind keeps working, 

The way sweat tickles her spine, 

The way her heartbeats makes deafening noise,

The way a thousand pins prickled her head,

The way she breathes profoundly, 

The way her teeth clenches to the extent it starts screeching,

The way she feel shapes forming up in darkness,

The way her demons come to look her in the eye and say ‘hello’,

The way she feels cold to her bones,

The way she trembles and her bones hurt mournfully,

The way she keeps tracing the same circle again and again and again…The way she starts her life from the scratch every few months,

That’s exactly how anxiety feels like! 

Forgotten Extremity!

Why have you forgotten?

Each day you pass, life gets shorten!

 

Then why you hold on to those grudges?

Life is running with every passing pulses!

 

Why you letting that pain define you?

Why you letting that hurt confine you?

While beautiful moments of life are very few!

 

Why hold on to that which has passed?

And then when life will end you’ll be aghast!

 

Do not let the past hold you!

Do not let the past mould you!

Do not let the past confine you!

 

Because…

Have you forgotten?

Each day you pass, life gets shorten!

Inherent Sentiment 


If I’m to ask you a question that what might be the most natural feeling for you what would come to your mind? 

Happiness. Oh being happy is the most natural thing. I felt that all my life, but let me tell you, it isn’t that natural. When everything is just picture perfect, good friends, loving spouse, good job, and still you feel something stinging inside. It’s definitely not what happiness feels like.

Love. Yes, I felt that too! But do you feel loved when you’re falling apart? No I guess, you’re falling apart because love is the only thing you’re not feeling. 

Peace maybe? Being peaceful is tough nut to crack. After working for whole day long, maybe you’re peaceful, but then you feel that lump in your throat, when you see you’re not appreciated for what you’re doing! Is that peace? No. 

All this is just one thing. It’s pain.

P.A.I.N.

Yes Pain comes off most naturally I guess. It’s most adaptable feeling isn’t it? 

A friend just got braces (for teeth obviously), I asked how’s the Pain. She said I got used to with it, for a while I thought she got used to with her braces but no, she got used to with the Pain those braces give. 

Do you remember that time when you were sitting on the floor weeping? That Pain. It’s still there, but now you’re used to with that Pain. So it’s easy to deal with! 

That moment when you lose your loved one forever! That feeling, like you cannot imagine your life without them. But then gradually you adapt that Pain! So get used to with those silent tears during darker nights. You get used to with that Pain. 

It’s strange how we believe all our lives that peace, happiness, love comes naturally, and we are adaptable to it! But no, we are adaptable to Pain the most. Maybe survival instinct it is, like a friend said! But it’s in our nature, to bear Pain and get used to with it! 

Still we feel ashamed to show we’re in Pain. Maybe that’s why we say it’s not natural, because we are ashamed of it maybe! 

Well let me tell you, it’s most natural thing you can feel, and it’s really okay to be in Pain. Don’t hide it, don’t go into that shell, just bleed. 

Bleed publicly. 

Because you are not alone in it. Everybody is more or less broken and in pain. So just hang in there, it’ll be alright. No it won’t go away, it’s not a fairytale! But you will get used to with that PAIN…

A year passed…


A year passed and…
We didn’t utter a word to each other!
We didn’t talk! I didn’t share those laughters and lot of silent tears, neither did you!
We were unknown, unknown of all those wonderful and painful moments!
We were not aware about each other’s lives, not even a bit.
We ignored those memories – when we shared the same room, and spend the whole time together!
We didn’t wear each other’s clothes lol 😄
A year passed by and we are still the same! Sisters, besties, bitches, roomies and friends for life.
I regret not seeing you but I know a year of silence cannot affect our bond even a single bit.
Something that’s purely dedicated to you and you only! Though you’re going to leave soon but do remember I’m just a call away… I’ll miss all those fun and crazy moments but it will all happen again I’m sure 😊