Life and storms..

Life and storms..

“I can hear your whisper and distant mutter. I can smell your damp on the breeze and in the sky I see the halo of your violence. Storm I know you are coming.”
In life also we sense it, the storm. We know when it’s coming, when it’s round the corner. I know it’s coming in my life too; I can sense it and feel it. I’m a bit scared that what if my tomorrow will vanish in that storm, what if I will lose my way or I won’t be able to go ahead. All these possibilities are haunting my mind. But well when I see the sky getting clear after a heavy storm I know something similar will happen in my life too.
Sometimes life isn’t about facing the storm, it’s all about dancing in the rain. Mostly we fail to see the purpose of the things. Even I’m frightened of storms, even I have my own fears regarding my future but qualms won’t change anything. It will just bring more uncertainties and vagueness. Sometimes it is not light that we need, but fire; it is not the gentle shower, but thunder. We need the storm, the whirlwind, and the earthquake to improve our lives. Just the rain won’t bring any changes in life, but storm will, it has the capacity to change and transform things thoroughly. It has the capacity to test our limits and change it for good. It has the capacity to strengthen us and give us something that simple and mundane things can’t. So I may be afraid of it but I am ready to face it and ready for the transformation that it’s going to bring along with it.

I’m not a normal girl next door…

I'm not a normal girl next door...

I was born to be different. I am not the kind of girl whom all guys would want to date. Neither do I dress to impress anyone nor do I make any extra efforts to get attention. I dance when I am happy, I laugh when I want to and I cry when I am hurt. I want someone who won’t care that I spend hours and hours reading books rather than gossiping with friends, that I’m incapable of controlling my laughter when I hear silly jokes, that I don’t actually understand the concept of behaving like a lady , that I can’t help but giggle in public whenever I see something funny. I want a man who knows that I am a little immature and I never regret any bad choice I make, coz I learn from those mistakes. I want someone who would actually fall in love with my insanity my innocence and immaturity and the stuff I am made of and not the pretty shoes or dress. Someone who could accept me with my impulsive and erratic behavior and adore my childishness and my idiosyncrasies. I want someone who knows how completely insane I am and he wouldn’t want me any other way. I know I am tough to be around but at least I’m not fake and I don’t put on a mask of what I’m not. I never dress up like other girls coz I believe in uniqueness, coz I believe every person is unique and should respect their uniqueness. I may be unpredictable and imprudent at times, I may not have a perfect lady like attitude but I don’t pretend to be what I’m not. I prefer to be alone rather than being with a wrong person. I’m not in hurry to get married or start my family coz I see myself as an independent being. I have lots of tattoos not coz it looks cool but coz I express my life through the tattoos I have. I may have esoteric tastes coz I don’t believe in following someone or something blindly. I don’t differentiate with their colors or hairstyles, but with their attitude and compassion. I don’t prefer to shed tears silently, instead I get up and move ahead
I’m not a normal girl next door, but I’m proud of my eccentricity and of what I am…